lights out

the power went out last night. i couldn't post, and i realized how much i'm using this blog to get closer to the images in my head. i started blogging to find others who see things the way i do. i'm starting to think there isn't anyone out there. i feel more alone than ever. worse, i was sitting in the dark, in empty space. i felt closer to it without electric running through the space. it was somehow purer. i'm not afraid of it anymore.

i put the videos up from my explorations of the empty space. i finally figured out how to get the images out of the VSR. it seems that they degrade over time, like they're memory. the sooner i extract them from the device, the clearer the images are. the more i watch them, the more degraded they become, like the images are forgetting, like the space is collapsing.

i've been thinking about tunnels and passageways. the basements and houses i explored, looking for empty spaces, were dug out places. there are lights underground, and water, and life. what if tunnels and passageways are the real gateways to empty space?